Sam + Smiling/Smirking
#we could have had it alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll #rolling in the deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppppppppppppppppppppp #you had my heart and soulllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll in your hands #but you were actually working for lilith the entire time and that kind of put a dent in our relationshipppppppp
perfect timing is perfect
so. I visited my cousin’s apartment today
Our relationship couldn’t continue to balance, as it did, on the point of a knife. We would fall off one edge or the other, depending entirely upon his decision, or his instincts. My decision was made, made before I’d ever consciously chosen, and I was committed to seeing it through. Because there was nothing more terrifying to me, more excruciating, than the thought of turning away from him. It was an impossibility.